Falling Fast
August 1998
Waiting and wanting for my sunshine to be near
I watch you intensely with my silent fear
Clouds form and shadows drop and I shiver for your rays
As I search in my maze for feelings I know are there
Somewhere
What are we approaching
All over again I’m floating
But the branch breaks and I made mistakes
But no more
I think I love you
But I’m scared to say
Just in cast I’d be
Throwing it all away
Waiting and wanting for my sunshine to be near
I watch you intensely with my silent fear
Clouds form and shadows drop and I shiver for your rays
As I search in my maze for feelings I know are there
Somewhere
I think I love you
But I’m scared to say
Just in cast I’d be
Throwing it all away
And I’m thinking of you
Every hour of the day
But I’m afraid to say
Just in case you would
Turn away from me.
Taken In
May 1999
Taken in by your smile
Taken in by your style
Taken in by you
I’m loosing my feet
I’m loosing sleep
And I’m loosing you
What’s happened to the beat
It was so damn sweet
Yeah what’s happened to the beat
It was so damn, so damn sweet
Looking round for your face
Looking for your taste
Looking for you
Feeling so up and down
Feelings so deep I drown
Feelings for you
What’s happened to the beat
It was so damn sweet
Yeah what’s happened to the beat
It was so damn, so damn sweet
Waiting for the encore
Waiting for so much more
I’m waiting for you
Seeing things now more clear
Seeing that you won’t be here
Seeing that I’ve lost you
What’s happened to the beat
It was so damn sweet
Yeah what’s happened to the beat
It was so damn, so damn sweet
Angel (For You)
December 1998
He carries himself onto the bus
Mentally he really tries
Something we cannot see
His hands and feet are tied
We can’t hear his screaming
Inside he’s so, so alive
Next to him an angel
Watching as he cries
You cry for who I don’t know
But it saddens me, so much despair
You cry for what, I’ll never see
But what I can is light and love for you
Your Angel is near
Reaching out to touch him
His sorrow calls his name
The emptiness inside him
Seems it will never go away
He needs something to blame
Don’t ever be ashamed
For next to you is your Angel
To help rebuild your flame
You cry for who I don’t know
But it saddens me, so much despair
You cry for what, I’ll never see
But what I can is light and love for you
Your Angel is near
But it saddens me, so much despair
You cry for who I don’t know
You cry for what, I’ll never see
But what I can is light and love for you
Your Angel is near.
Stain Of Guilt
February 1999
It all feels so wrong
I though I’d found where I belong
I’ve been kidding myself too long
All I want is my music loud
But I wouldn’t hear the phone
He’s done something to my mind
I never used to feel so alone
I’m wine you’ve spilt
A stain of guilt on you
Your pour but you won’t drink
What am I supposed to think?
The affection I have shown
Has all be thrown back at me
I don’t understand
Because when you held my hand
It felt like you love me
I’m wine you’ve spilt
A stain of guilt on you
Your pour but you won’t drink
What am I supposed to think?
Promises you made wound me
There’s no mistake you threw me
I’m wine you’ve spilt
A stain of guilt on you
Your pour but you won’t drink
What am I supposed to think?
Swallowed Up
March 1998
Twenty five miles down the road it’s raining
I can feel my cold and wet toes in my shoes
Maybe I’ll come and visit one day
Nothing is what would be thrown away
I’m down on my knees to you
And it’s now that I pray
I’m swallowed up today
I’ve got nowhere else to be
And there’s nothing left to say
Except that I am swallowed up today
Watching the lights of other lives blur through my vision
Deep inside I am jealous of her but I lie
It’s so easy for me to believe
That all of this is a game to me
I’m down on my knees to you
And it’s now that I pray
I’m swallowed up today
I’ve got nowhere else to be
And there’s nothing left to say
Except that I am swallowed up today
Metamorphic Soul
December 1998
I am walking the corridor one step at a time
Gaining ground each tread I combine
With a stride to try and get into your life
I am excited by your intrepid eyes
You’re persuasive, evasive, exquisitely new
I’ve never met anybody like you
Now I am down on my knees
Come on honey, love me please
Take my breath and wake my mind
Touch my body new feelings I find
You are in control of my metamorphic soul
Do not underestimate or give time to your doubt
Come over and kiss me or you’ll be missing ouyt
Decide in you mind if I fill your dream
And if I do then get deep with me
Take my breath and wake my mind
Touch my body new feelings I find
You are in control of my metamorphic soul
Silent Feelings
March 1999
Some connection, some attraction
Like a surfer to the sea
Something chemical, something burning
Deep inside of me
Washed up, need to crawl home
I’m gonna stand up and face it all alone
Each wave folds onto the beach
As I lie there they don’t quite reach me
I lift my head and face into the wind
I want to know why do you keep me waiting
Why do you keep me waiting?
Why do you keep me waiting for you?
I’m focused on the waves retreat as they slowly edge away
If I were to jump in would it make them stay?
The cloud cover darkens the sky, I’m feeling cold as it turns to night
I came here to clear my mind
I can’t stop asking myself why
Oh why?
I lift my head and face into the wind
I want to know why do you keep me waiting
Why do you keep me waiting?
Why do you keep me waiting for you?
Meltdown
October 1999
Sit down and close your eyes
Climb out of your disguise
Shut down let the world go by
Eventually someone may hear your cry
Are you still alive?
Your surface burns that hide
The Icicles that’s inside
And with the force that you try
To melt the years gone by
Are you still alive?
The false beliefs I hear you say
I watch as you wish life away
Sleeping in ties
Leaving you allies in pain
And you wonder why you feel drained.
Deep in your eyes your concerned
Confused by each way that you turn
The power and control you expel
Gives me the impression that you’re wall
But with you you I never can tell
Are you still alive?
Is anything left inside?
It’s been too long
You’re a meltdown
Meltdown.
Ode To A Rizla
(J.Bishop & C. Elvin)
July 1999
I sit in the packet and my feet are itching
I have my aspirations, I have my ambitions
This packet’s in the pocket of #### knows who
And my fate depends upon what they do
I wanna be a tulip, I wanna be a spliff
I wanna drift away in a sweet hazy mist
Fill me with skunk and make it snappy
Roll me up and smoke me and I’ll be happy
Why do you take your time and keep me waiting
Give me the thrill I’m anticipating
Any grass or solid I am willing to bare
As long as when you roll me you take great care
I wanna be a tulip, I wanna be a spliff
I wanna drift away in a sweet hazy mist
Fill me with skunk and make it snappy
Roll me up and smoke me and I’ll be happy
Don’t you realise that it’s a sin(a)
Just wrap me round some Golden Virginia
If I only had a choice I’d you mix something in with your Cutters Choice
I wanna be a tulip, I wanna be a spliff
I wanna drift away in a sweet hazy mist
Fill me with skunk and make it snappy
Roll me up and smoke me and I’ll be happy!
Strawberry-Anna
June 1999
Walking by her side
Along the line of the tide
I see into her mind
I can see her heart
Her precious thoughts are great to me
The way she lives with humility
As I look across the strawberry sea
I know we will be
Connected, accepted
They’ll always be something
To hold us, told mould us together
Because she is my friend
I wonder If she knows
How far that I would go
To help her see inside
The wisdom that in her lies
The greatness that I feast upon
The feeling to sing this song
People come and people go
But I won’t forget that in my heart I know
Connected, accepted
They’ll always be something
To hold us, told mould us together
Because she is my friend
There she goes, she’s not alone
Walk your way, I’ll shield you from pain
Feel alive, No reason to hide
No reason to hide.
